Tuesday, January 5, 2010

LOVE IS

previously
Ever so often we try and put definition on everything and anything. May it be labels and stereotypes. We need to know, we need to understand and if we are left dumbfounded we seek for meaning till we would sometimes end standing on a dead end.

I have to get a life and yes sir I did. Moved to a dorm which has all the amenities available, all I have to do was pay the rent and sleep on my bed and live among others just like me. And here it all started.

My name is Ian Jericho Cruz and this is my story.


RAIN

I can hear the rain dancing on the window sills as the night creeps in. I have to leave the windows open, to catch a little of the light left from the evening sky. The lights were off and I had to tumble on the sheets, the air was humid so I decide to take my clothes off and in my boxers I lay still.

A warm wave of air touched my face, with a light kiss Jorean touched my lips.

"Hey...", I smiled groggily as I greeted him.

"It rained on me when I got off the train, had to run all the watch to catch a ride from the station", if I can recall he went on his usual comforting drone as he talks about how he got all soggy and wet on the rain.

He slowly took off his long sleeved shirt that clung to his chest like a lover. With on flick he removed his belt off and he got out of his pants. There he stood peeling off his white undershirt and walked around the bed with his black boxer briefs as he peered around the dimly lit room to look for the towel just beside the window.

Its how the wet cotton clings to his arms that made me curl up in bed looking on him like a voyeur.

"Why don't you shower and get off on them clothes before you catch a cold," I droned in on his litany.

"Look at this, its cold outside..." his voice faded some distance as he looks outside the window. I can see the Jorean's silhouette in the dark as he leans on the drawer while looking out.

I had to get off the sheets that tangled me in its embrace. The floor was a bit chilly on my toes as I skipped across the room to embrace him as we watched the evening pass.

"Hey...", that was all he said as he looked across the moonless sky.

He grabbed my hands as I tightened my embrace, I felt his heart beat under my skin. I kissed his shoulders and I can smell the rain on him, the warmth of the towel that slung on his arms was a comfort in the rain.

I shivered as the cold wind blew in and yet I wanted to feel the rain as it falls from the sky. With my left hands outstretched on the open window, I asked you "Why did you have to run in the rain?"

Jorean looked over his shoulders and faced me, and on those eyes I hear silence. I felt his breath touch my face once more and with a sinful kiss he sealed the words in me.

He lays there sleeping just one breath away, but that night I felt that a distant wall was building up between us. It was a scary thought but maybe, just maybe it was just the rain that I hear singing outside.


Priscilla Ahn - Rain

to be continued


Friday, January 1, 2010

LOVE IS

Ever so often we try and put definition on everything and anything. May it be labels and stereotypes. We need to know, we need to understand and if we are left dumbfounded we seek for meaning till we would sometimes end standing on a dead end.

Coffee in one hand, eyes dazed and empty, the car horn just blaring on me.

This has been me for the past few days after Joreon closed the door and left his key by the bed and his things are gone, all of them. I have been asking myself all this time as I try to wake my senses with a scalding hot coffee at hand, why? I could not even hear my self think much less give a care what has been happening around lately. How could I? I do not have the will to move on. I gave him all and now I am... alone.

"GET OFF THE ROAD ALREADY!"

I stood there motionless for a second and I realized am still standing in front of a car while the rest of the pedestrians have already crossed the road. "Wait, I am going okay!" I muttered to myself and dragged my ass across the road.


When I turned 23 I finally decided to move out of my parents house to become who I thought I should be. Moved across cities to settle down on the Metro. Found myself a place, and for one whole year I settled with nothing much going on in my life. Work, work and work some more. And we all know where this would lead.

I have to get a life and yes sir I did. Moved to a dorm which has all the amenities available, all I have to do was pay the rent and sleep on my bed and live among others just like me. And here it all started.

My name is Ian Jericho Cruz
and this is
my story.


Ingrid Michaelson: Little Romance