Randomness

Lets Pause on the Drama and check out what's out there.

"Hold It Against Me" - Britney Spears (Sam Tsui Cover)

Jar Of Hearts-Christina Perri (Sam Tsui Cover)

Its not obvious that I am a fan of whatever-Sam-Tsui (although this guy always oversings it, I kind of like it... so much emotion it oozes on the speakers).

I never liked chicken feet, looks gross! 

Breadtalk, no talk just eat!

Can you imagine how much butter is in it? Munch... munch... I dunno, ask my tummy.

Green tastes nice sans the puking after.

Soulmates... good read.

Boots in her moment of clarity! :P

The sea never ceases to make me smile however sad I am.

It sparkles like pretty!

Held this gun, it was cold as it was scary.

 I figured I still like girls half of the time.

Oh them shoes are sexy or its just the Bacardi talking.

My cup of coffee, too pretty to drink...

That's it for now. Chill <3

Snippets and Thoughts

Ever found yourself engrossed by the whole idea that you have lost yourself in the process of thinking about someone who matters to you? Caught yourself teary eyed as you walk past places you both have shared memories and tales of persuasion?

I have.

Life is peppered with bits and pieces of memories that keeps us sane in this insane and pious world. Spiced up with memories that we can always hold on to. Moments that we play over and over again in our minds... a perpetual playback of that one kiss, that one smile, that one phone call and that split second realization that you have found that one person you were looking for all along. It maybe harsh but the truth is... we live by those moments and when people change there is nothing left to do but remember.

I did.

Did you ever think that you were alone on those moments of confusion as you are not sure how come it feels so right when it should be wrong? We all take that chance. I have read it somewhere when one asked, "Did you regret us?" "I miss a lot of things" he said. "But I never did, if I never embraced us... I'd miss you."

I was there.

I figured I needed to build my defenses once more--the one I tore down for you. I can never be needy and pathetic, I can not be naked and vulnerable. I can not let my self get lost in the process of loving nor caring. Surely, now I miss and I cant even say it straight faced. Why? That I don't know because I needed you.

I still do.

Know that in those moments of grief as you lay in bed with your eyes wide open hoping and waiting you would be remembered, you have been. Close your eyes and grab that pillow, cry if you must...

I do.

Trust that in your silence, peace would bring you hope. If they are not able to give you back that love you deserve that doesn't mean they don't care enough but maybe because they just don't know how to.

Be at peace with the love that you give and don't expect anything in return. Do not be afraid to love because you have love to give.

I will.

There maybe tomorrow or the next day after that. The rest of the tale only time can tell.

5:19
Matt Wertz

I Will...

I have been unfair to myself and to others.  To a friend, to a lover and to another.  The other day when I woke up, I realized it was just not me.  I am starting to loose a friend.

So I have decided to leave for awhile, soon...

To mend broken expectations, inclinations and and to face the fear--that which has consumed the pocket full of sunshine that I once kept for myself.

To be whole again, to be happy for me... and to find the strength and the courage to want that which lasts.

I will...

I will always be sorry... but I will always smile at the thought, whatever it was I will treasure...

I will smile again...

I may not be able to say it again to you, but know this--when you see it in my eyes, you would know it.

To a friend.

Come On Get Higher

Matt Nathanson

Thus, iSpeak.